something is really wrong with me.
i've been avoiding people alot lately.

maybe its because i'm too stressed?

hmmm..
wadever.


anw,
i dun think i can put up with these crap
any longer.

I ended up being confused,
hurt and shattered at the same
time.


one moment i say i love him.
and the next, i hate him.


I don't really know what i'm supposed to
do.

nowadays,
i kept myself quiet.
i don't even want to talk with those around me;
my friends.


i spent my timerevising or play taiti to
keep my mind preoccupied.


i'm sick in the head.



argh.!



maybe..

i should stop. and jump off a building?

lol.

that is so stupid pls!
haha...

taken at the park. cute rite? hahax




racial harmony day sux.

but c.i.p.
at bukit batok nature park was fun!!!!

hahax.

gt no time to elaborate.

gtg.

bye ((:

hot isnt he?
hehex.

i'm in love with him ((:

SHALENE HUANG asked me to do it.
sheesh. hehex
but its ok ((:

Name 11 people you can think of right now in your head.
After that tag at least 5 people to do this

1. shalene
2. faiza
3. azillah
4. ramizah
5. hasanah
6. kenny
7. wei huang
8. lan bolan
9. melvynn
10.suriana
11.julia

1. How did you meet 10?;
shalene- erm.. taekwondo??
lol

2.What would you do if you never met 2;
faiza- omg. life in sch will never be the same again
cuz she's the one hu brightens up muii day ((:

3.What would you do if 9 and 11 dated?;
hahax!
melvynn and julia- i think i'll jump off the building. ewwe :P

4.Do you like 7?;
wei huang- err. haha. i like him as a fren of cuz


5.would 5 and 6 make a good couple?;
hasanah and kenny- eee... hees. no comment :X


6.Describe 3;
azillah- someone who loves to laugh and and she's a human satellite!
hahax. love ya lots ((:

7.Do you think 8 is attractive;
lan bolan- hahax. yup yup. he's attrative and as cute as a teddy bear <33

8.Tell me something about 2;
faiza- she's horny, funny and caring and and she's... *i can go on and on.. haha*

9.Do you know any of 4's family?;
melvynn- nope. :>

10.Whats 5's favourite things?;
her virginity and and her mp3. :x
hehe

11.What would you do if 3 confesses he/she likes you.;
oh. she's alr my grand daughter. and and i love her.(ermm. do i sound lyk a lesbian?)

12.What language does 6 speak?;
cranky english with a thang of mucus and chinese.

13.Who is 9 going out with?;
melvynn- he's single.

15.When was the last time you talked to 1?
shalene- so long ago? hahax

16.What is 2's favourite band/singer?
me me me!!! hahax. i'm not sure.

17.Would you ever date 7?
wei huang- eeek! nnoooo!! haha

18.Would you ever date 11?;
erm... uhh.. she's a gurl and i dun tink both of us are lesbians. hehe

19.Have you ever seen 2 naked?;
hehex. nope. gosh!

People whom you want to pass this on:
erm. suriana, azillah faiza and lots more luh.
lol.
just dun ask me to do it again can le.

[44 days and still counting :) ]

dear's not feeling well today.
:(

haix..

get well soon?
hahax.

yup yup.

anw,
today my shirt kept on tucking out.
and and i got the pink slip cuz
i was like. erm hello.. 2 mins late
and was detained outside the HOD room?

urghh.

i tink i ate the goreng pisang until i
wasnt aware of the time.

lol.

me and ching kang were practically ranting and complained
to every teacher who looked at us.

lol.

reached class later,
kenny complained to me tt they were scoled by mrs teo cuz
the culprit*me*
who drew on the whiteboard like nobody's business
do not hv the initiative
to erase it clean
.

lol.

hu cares?

hahax.

the rest of the day was boring.
mr leow was not having his menopause.

his mood was kinda good today.

lol.

oh my.

gtg le.

i'm having remedial later.

buhbye!

:D

11o6o6, tuesday
[41 days and still counting]:

after school, had my malay o lvl oral.
omg,
the question was kinda easy but i blame myself for constantly
blurting out inacessively like one spastic freak.

humph humph.

hope i get good scores.
i don't wana do badly for this.

:(

later on,
had tuition as usual.
and this also means that i get the chance to c darling!
woohoo :D

he told me he had to rush doing his homework just so
that he can fetch me.

awwe..
isn't he sweet?

:))

met him at the usual place.
then we walk walk.
took bus 198 home.
the bus was exceptionally earlier.
hahax.
we usually kept on missing it and had to wait fer another 15 mins.

guess we were lucky tt day :B

had fun talking to dear on the bus
la.
and and he's so naughty man.
tickle me like nobody's business.
haha.
smack his butt lohz fer tt.

haha.
and and he took off his specs
cuz he told me tt
since i didnt wear spec and my vision may be blurr
*he didnt noe i was wearing contact lens and i didnt tell him. hehe*,
he peh me lohz.

he look so cute with his eyes small small de.
haha (**,)

send me off at the usual place.
hees.
hugged him extra tight!
haha.

wen he reached hm le,
he got a scolding from his parents cuz
his father saw us at the traffic light earlier on.

and he got into trouble fer tt.
so poor thing.
hope he clear things off with his parents soon. :(

13o6o6, thursday
[43 days and still counting]:

today maths remedial was crap!
waited fer ms wee like effing long
and when she came,
all she did was pass us the papers and dismissed us.

LAME.

hmph.

then hang out with faiza and her sis.
it was fun as always ((:
we were practically playing with the tissue in the canteen.
and and we wrapped up our face.
i was the pocong, she was a ninja turtle.
hahax..

wanted to take a picture
but then i realised that my hp wasnt with me.

rushed up to class 4/9 cuz i noe my hp is happily waiting fer me there *____*"
haiz. dunno why i'm so forgetful!
luckily no one condomeer it lohz.
phew ((:

blah blah blah
went home with faiza and her sis.
haha.
had fun with u both!
thanx fer making my day((:

sometimes i feel guilty towards him.
for not spending time with him.

sometimes i feel as if i'm holding
him down with this relationship.

but i just don't know what else to do.
i don't want to lose him.


urgh...

put a gun to my head and blast it pls.

shrugg.*

[[39 days and still counting]]

whoots.

i shifted my blog to another blog..

and and..

decided to shift back to this blog again.

lol.

su... link me back!!

hahax.

i'm down with fever rite now.
was trapped in the sick bay
the whole day in school ytd.

when i woke up,
i found bits and pieces of
tissue all over my hair.

haha..

even the aci, faiza and azillah
said tt too.

:D

anw,
i kinda tahnful for this,
cuz i got to
pon. english..
phew -_-"

kinda feel miserable now.
wahaha.

pfft.!
2days mc doesnt make me happy.

why?
cuz i'm trapped in here and and..
i'm gonna miss out alot in studies.
yikes!

maybe i'm going back to sch tml.

*shrugg*

gotta go!

((:

[ 1 month, 31 days and still counting ((: ]

thursday, 29o6o6:

nth really special happened in sch today.

its jus about me and the others
who didnt complete mrs teo's
work get kicked out of the class.

hahax.

me, faiz, haikel and ashraf were
so bored so we decided to
count how many times the teacher (he's an NIE trainee)
yawned listening to mrs. teao's babbling.

we bet too.

and overall,
he yawned for 15 solid times.

ashraf and faiz won the bet.

haha.

wei huang, kelvin and hao wei
were hiding behind the door
betting and chatting.

and the rest in class were half dead.
none were left awake.

lol.

at night,
went for tuition.
reached hm at o930 pm.
tired.

slept like a pig.


friday, 31o6o6:

managed to stay up in all classes.
last period was DNT.
mr leow was as usual,
nagging like a centinarean.

no no no.
i dun even think those 100-yr old prunes
have the strength to rant like him.

haha.

and he told us he did all this
because he love us.

awwe... *m i supposed to pretend to be touched?*
haha.

ya ya.

had fun laughing at him.

anw,
i still owe mrs chan my p.hist file,
and mr. siva fer my dnt wkbk.

damned.

dunno where's my book nia.

nb.

saturday, today arh:

swimming lesson as usual.
got to c that cute but sounds-like-a-bulldog instructor.
*oh. he's not my instructor though*

nearly broke one kid's neck while doing backstroke.
nearly drowned cuz i was too tired doing all those laps.
nearly swear at tt indian guy for being outrageously smelly.

and oh..
nearly kicked my instructor's dick while doing my freestyle.

hees.

well.
that's all i guess.

gtg.
take care peeps. ((: